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How did I find out all this stuff …… and ‘Eric’ #2

Original draft: © August 1999 - Rik Wellens
Finally uploaded in March 2002

Note #1 added March 2002: The following story remained unpublished and tucked away for 2.5 more years. I decided now, shocked by the recent 9-11-2001 incidents in the US, that we have to gear-up the efforts in establishing a better human consciousness, otherwise this world has a very bleak future....

I hope the sincere tale of my experiences will help you to recognise as well the great, energy or guide in yourself, your own deep (or high) self, expressing itself in synchronistic coincidences and eerie life cycles connections.......

Pages in this Theme 'Preface-Me-Discovery':
1: Preface and motivation
2: Who is the writer
3: How I discovered these cycles
4: How I became a writer, and not knowing the word 'impossible'
5: How "Eric" became a personal guide in my study

Last updated: March 5, 2005...

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If the following sounds weird to you, well it was to me as well, and I kept it for years to myself. But now (August 1999), I decided to open it up and set it free to go.

I believe I have some kind of double life from time to time. The other guy is ‘Eric’. And it seems that he is connected with my deep self (or high self) or coupled with something else… In the beginning he spoke only English, but now he learned Dutch as well.

‘Eric’ first appeared in my life in April '89, but he surfaced real intense in May '97. And from Dec. '97 on, he became a part of my live, regularly coming and going. (I have to admit that writing this text is not easy at all).

After the 6 years study of Biofeedback, hypnotherapy etc… between '79-'85, I noticed that, when thinking about consciousness, psychological and esoteric matters etc..., that I very often used to think in English instead of Dutch (my native tongue). I thought that this was because I did those studies in that language.

On the other hand, during my whole life, people are calling me ‘Eric’. Again and again, they seemed to misunderstand my very easy to pronounce, well-known and common Dutch name ‘Rik’ and responded instead with ‘Eric’. This happened so often that I thought about simply changing my name accordingly (I didn't do it, because I have a son with that name and I thought that by changing to his name, I might take something from him). It seemed that people where perceiving me as being "another" person, an "Eric". Their intuition seemed in some way to get troubled and their perception in hearing "Rik" changed to hear instead "Eric" and subsequently call me with that name.

Note #2 added March 2002: during last 2.5 years, I was named only once again by the name 'Eric', just recently. As "Eric" became fully integrated, there was no need anymore to be called by "another name" for a seemingly separate identity and the above described phenomenon faded away almost completely.

On May 22, '97, I was in the deepest of my personal crises following my going broke, losing everything… I really came to a grinding halt. In synchronicity with this, they where demolishing a building just before my house for a month. And that day this work was finished, the ground was levelled, the fence closed. Neat and nice!

This synchronicity shook me so deeply that the session of the day before with my therapist (about 3 generations of life) restarted really intense at home. During 1.5 hour, I relived my whole life, saw what a terrible mess it was, how I manipulated people (including my own son), what kind of white collar crook I was. I saw my son, myself, my father and my grandfather… and during this hell of a time, I felt a tremendous flow of energy in my whole psyche and body. Images, sounds, colours, ideas, sorrow, pain… New thoughts and insights, more pain, more images. It went on and on and on…

That week, I made a few fundamental decisions: I decided to move, to restart my old job as a hypno-therapist, to gear up my ongoing study in full and to become a servant of the people instead of the colossal taker that I had been during the proceeding 7 years.

So, I really took it seriously and did the things I had decided. Almost immediately I had a short relationship with an outburst of love, peak satori experiences in the middle of the marketplace of Antwerp, regaining new insights, combining, reading and meditating…

I participated in a really good training about ‘Sexual Grounding and Heart Energy’ in Holland, followed a relationship training in the USA (‘Mars-Venus’), studied like hell, succeeded in ‘recuperating’ some money from the sale of my last house (forced by my bank)… and was busy on a lot of creative matters at the same time.

Than the next blow came: My second ex wife boycotted my visiting rights with my two youngest children (daughter 12, son 14) on very short notice, just before their scheduled 1 week Christmas holiday with me. Due to the earlier bankruptcy, I did not have any legal action against it available. So, on Dec. 20, '97, there I sat in deep despair and sorrow in my living room, in complete disarray, with an empty week in front of me and asked myself: "for God's sake, what is the meaning of all this again?"…

… and out of the blue came a very simple, quiet answer: "Now I have a lot of time to study!"

Only a few weeks before, I had started to study the material for a workshop about 'Sensory De-Conditioning' with a lot of visual effects, light sessions, including experimenting with different sorts of music, resonances, humming etc… and I was asked by an interested Seminar & Health Centre to write down a small text about it, "one page or so would do it..".

So, I simply used this extra Christmas week to dive into it. I concentrated myself completely to the job at hand, trying in the same time to integrate the pain and sorrow and to give it some place. Two weird things happened: A) the emotional pain vanished almost completely as I was doing very creative work and B) I noticed that my creative thoughts and ideas ‘became extremely enriched by something’. Every time I thought about an item, a related subject popped up in my mind. When I asked myself: "how should I do this or that ??…." Hop, an extra idea, a new possibility joined in...

Extremely energetic and very nice to receive. WOW ! And during 2 weeks, this one page draft for the ‘small one day workshop’ grew and developed into 60 pages about typology, Synergy Flow, archetypes, man-woman energy, higher mind, esoteric laws… I worked almost day and night to follow it (even at New Years eve, I went home at 1 o'clock in the night).

But while writing one part into my computer, another subject was already announced. It kept simply coming and coming in a steady, overwhelming flood. Than, after some 16 days of working like hell, I got very tired, collapsed completely and yelled into my working room: "that it had to stop, that I did not want to hear any ideas anymore, NOT A SINGLE ONE ! Damn it !!"…….

And at once it became extremely quiet…. Everything really stopped and I sat there enjoying my silence and peace, made a stroll to the bakery, took a nap, read a little, watched TV again, ate a normal meal… For 3-4 hours I was completely relaxed and happy with this new silence and peace...

…And than, in a very prudent, shy manner, a very faint, small 'idea' tapped quietly on the door of my mind…. "if it wouldn't be possible to do it so or so ?"... Really nice, very forthcoming and soft voiced. And as I am a very curious man, I grudgingly opened one eye, thought it over for some seconds and decided: "well, why not, sounds reasonable…".

The work restarted in a much more relaxed manner and during the next months, I studied and worked really enjoyed together with this ‘companion’ (named ‘Eric’) and he learned even to speak Dutch afterwards.

Since Dec. '97, I am very busy with studying, reading, devising lectures, workshops and doing more research. Out of the co-operation with ‘Eric’ came a sort of complete blue print about the human psyche that I am now steadily writing down. Not everything but only the most developed, appropriate parts. If I was to use it all, I think I have sufficient outline for 3-4 books (and this is still growing).

A compilation of relief effect and a real photograph.

So, all this material that is presented here is a mixture of my own life experience, knowledge, consciousness, actual research, work as a therapist and personal deductions and at the other hand, it seems that this material comes from an entity that is beyond our level of human development.

But at the same time it is to me very obvious that these theories and practical schemes that are presented are strongly connected with our human race. Only, the material is far further developed than is available on this moment in our society, and often I don't even understand it (it is obvious that I don't use these parts yet).

So, I think that in a way, the previous society (Atlantis, Mu ?…) that certainly existed till some 12.000 years ago, is in our era ‘reincarnating’ into our consciousness and into our society as a whole. And I am just one of the guys ‘with a good radio receiver’ !….

I hope that the above can give you more insight about all this. Thank you for your interest.

© August 1999 Rik Wellens ;-)

Note #3 added March 2002: The original available material at the time of the first draft of this text (August '99) increased about 4 fold or so over the following year. I became so overwhelmed again that I had to dramatically reduce the special method of meditation I used before and the 'connection' and further influx of new material became tightly controlled. It was obvious that I completely lacked the time (and energy) to register this all, work it all out or put it all in practical use.

So, I concentrated my work during last 1.5 years on the development of the Life Cycles Matrix ® system in my therapy practice and I hope to be ready very soon with my 1st 'paper' book...

My co-operation with "Eric" is still very fruitful but focuses now on developing my own lines of thought, interwoven with deeper material.